07-28-01 @ 9:06 pm EDT

Yahoo! sucks.

So does this popup I just got.

And when it switches windows on me while I'm TYPING SOMETHING!!

Why didn't Ma come home when she said she would?

If there had been a nice sunset today, I would have missed it.

And I would have been pissed.

I want to eat my sandwich.

I've got a bruise on my arm. I've tried making it worse. Thing is, what will my parents say if they see it?

I hate brushing it off all the time.

*sigh*

I'm a poor liar.

I wonder where these bruises come from anyway??

I keep expecting someone else to pop in here and say something.

These sentences are too short.

I must still think I'm in chat.

I hate chat.

But I wanted to spread the word on how to access newest messages when Yahoo! is SUCKING BUTTERMILK.

Such as it has been doing all day today.

CLEAN OUT YOUR **$*#*$u*# DATABASE, YAHOO!!

Like, start by getting rid of those 645,385,281 users who HAVEN'T LOGGED IN IN FOUR YEARS!

Such as the one who took my name, Tehuti!

I had to become Tehuti_88.

>:(

Oh well, the eights are a nice touch...

See how I'm someone else right now?

Just watch, later on I'll be the person I was last night.

Yippee.

Me: "Will you come home around 5:30?"

Ma: "Yes."

Me: "And bring the camera with you..."

Ma: "Well, I'm not going to LEAVE it there..."

Time?

8:52 PM.

>:(

Why does she say she's going to do something and then never does it?

How interesting are family reunions anyway? She talks with these people all the time as it is! They go to bingo six out of seven days of the week, for God's sake!

(And then she comes home and plays bingo on the computer.)

(The other day of the week? She goes to the casino then.)

(And doesn't get home until two in the morning.)

My family's too big which is why I don't like it.

I don't go to Christmas and holiday gatherings anymore, now that I have a CHOICE.

I'm invisible there too.

I still remember when I set my stuff on the couch at Grandma's to save my seat (there is NEVER anywhere to sit unless you grab on and CLING to it), then I came back and my uncle's new wife had DUMPED my stuff on the floor and taken my seat. She sat there chattering away happily with someone else and completely ignored me while I tried timidly to get her attention.

After that, I said NO MORE.

If they can't even be courteous enough to save you your seat, and if the ONLY things they can ever think of to ask you are "So, do you have a job? are you still in college? do you have a boyfriend yet?"--when they KNOW the answer to each one is NO NO NO!!, and when they then lose ALL interest in me, it's time for me to say screw this, I'm not coming anymore.

"They haven't seen you in a long time! They're old, this may be their last chance to see you! They want you to visit! They care about you!"

Wow, it SO shows. "Do you have a job?"--meaning, are you still sponging off your parents? "Are you still in college?"--meaning, what is your EXCUSE for not having a job? "Do you have a boyfriend yet?"--meaning, well, since you're not in school and have no job, couldn't you at LEAST settle down with somebody, give us some grandkids?

Yeah, they care. A lot.

My other grandma? Smaller side of the family, so I go to her house on Christmas--but then I think of the time I started telling her a story, she turned to me to listen, and then right in the middle of it she turned to my mother and started talking to her as if I weren't even there, hadn't even been talking to her, didn't even exist.

She cares, too. A lot.

So I stay home. So I don't have to go through their stupid three-question routine and then complete ignoring.

I may not deserve better, but I at least won't deal with it now that I have the choice.

I don't see what's so great about our family anyway...

Look, see, that was fast! Already I am becoming the person I was last night! :)

That wasn't too hard...