08-31-01 @ 3:31 am EDT

For some reason the passwords at DearDiary.net keep changing. I had to have my new password e-mailed to me so I could change it back to normal, only to find a slew of password changes in my e-mail; it must have been changing them all night!

DDN doesn't know what's going on...

Elfwood is STILL down. Isn't it great, that as soon as I summon up the courage to apply the site goes down? Knowing my luck they'll lose my application and I'll have to start completely over. Of course.

HE publicly promised a letter by the first or second. I wait nowadays for people to prove themselves rather than take their word for it. If I get met with silence, then I give silence in return. What's kind of stupid is that he wrote to tell me he was considering taking a break from the Net again for a while (as he did last time) because he has a tendency to push people away. Well. All along he's been telling ME I need to stop pushing people away, to start letting them in. How can he tell me to do this when he can't even do it himself?

They have shown the SAME episodes of Looney Tunes for the past three nights! That "Wet Hare" episode with Black Jacques Shellac, and the "Barber Of Seville" parody. Why are they doing that? There are tons of Looney Tunes eps. Why show these same ones so often? It's like the time they aired the same episode of Space Ghost with Dennis Leary for weeks running. What, did they just really like that episode or something?? It wasn't even the best one.

I still want to find a picture of Kooler.

Why hasn't anybody looked at my Trench Rats character list yet? Not even one uninterested read. <:( I keep editing and posting it and anybody has yet to even click on it. Do I pick the wrong hours? I wish somebody would offer me some encouragement on that thing! I love sharing details and getting feedback about my characters, I even choked down my disgust and posted a link on the Shameless Plugs page. No go. What am I doing wrong?

I really need to finish Part 34 of MI. Normally I'd post it tonight, but it's not even done yet...hopefully by tomorrow night.

Hopefully.

But after that, everything's uncertain. Where do I go from there?

*sigh* I think it's officially moved from being fun and exciting to difficult. I hope it never moves to tedious. :(