08-25-01 @ 6:24 pm EDT

But not much stuff.

Ma brought home a couple of computer programs...well, we though it was just one at first. She installed PrintArtist Gold Version 3 before realizing that the other pack was Version 8. She overwrote 3 with 4, which came with 3, but when she tried to overwrite 4 with 8, of course it just installed 8 and now we have both 4 and 8. AGH!! I KNEW it would do that. I think you'd need Versions 5, 6, and 7 to make a proper overwrite for 8! So now we have two MORE print programs. And a new buttload of fonts, I bet! AND NO DAMN FONT MANAGER! WE NEED A FRIGGIN' FONT MANAGER DAMMIT!!

I asked in a Club last night about them and made it clear that I have no idea what I really need or how they work, and somebody linked me to a page FULL of download links. SIGH. Can't somebody be a BIT more specific? I don't know which one I need! Or if they're any better than or the same as one you have to pay for! Plus they didn't answer my question about the safety of uninstalling fonts that came with programs. I don't want to uninstall something if I don't know where it came from. And there are so many damn fonts on our hard drive that I really have no idea where they belong!

I'm thinking I'll try to find the guys that made PrintShop and see if I can contact them and ask. *sigh* I bet they won't answer me though.

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Did more work on Upuat last night, but couldn't get Anubis right. :( I KNEW it. His nose is supposed to be longer and it's almost impossible to draw a long nose in 3/4 view. How does one do it? Darn it. I really want to be able to draw them. Tried my hand at Bastet, she did NOT turn out at all the way I see her, but she's kinda cute. Might finish her just for the novelty. Sketched what was supposed to be Tal Natha but it looks a bit more like Ocryx. Doesn't seem quite right, I think the head's a bit big, but I KNOW that if I made it smaller it would be too small. Just looks kind of funny on the page. Tried drawing a human, no go. *sigh* I suck at drawing people, always have. I can get the bodies more easily now, but still not the faces.

Frontal views seem to be perhaps the hardest of all now that I've seen 3/4 views. What am I going to do about that?

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I had yet more dreams of abandonment last night. That theme is so tiring and yet always upsets me even once I wake up. In this one I was alone at home and I noticed bugs on my floor, then I tried turning on my light several times and each time I sat back down it was OFF again--like I kept zoning out and turning it off without my own knowledge!! I got thoroughly freaked out and went to call Ma (she was in Mackinaw somewhere with my brother and sister-in-law) but couldn't remember the number. When I tried the only one that came into my head I got a meteorologist!! I could NOT remember the number, I was home alone with bugs and these weird memory lapses, what was I going to do?--well, if you want to know what happened next, you'll have to check out my Dreams journal later on when I post the entry because that journal's for dreams and this one isn't. ;P But it was distressing nonetheless.

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AND...I noticed that a few people went and rated "Windmills" so it averaged out to a four (one more star than I think it deserves ;) ). I feel like I cheated because I linked to it in a place I feel I shouldn't have--very manipulative of me--and whined about it. *SIGH* Can't I do anything and feel good about it? At least it's not a one. I'll have to step in there later on and thank them. I know I'm not a poet and in the "real world" such an item may very well deserve a one. But this isn't a professional writing site, we're mostly amateurs here. I like to think we're a bit more lenient.

Um, I think I ran out of things to say, so that's it, I guess...