09-20-01 @ 5:43 am EDT

...be so stupid? Why can't I understand even the simplest things on my own? I've been searching for solutions all day long and all I can seem to get is either "I don't know" or instructions which are obvious, yet not obvious enough even for me. Everyone assumes I know even the basics, which I DON'T. After almost twelve hours I STILL can't figure it out.

How dense can I be, to not even be able to figure out how to run something in DOS? I feel so stupid. I know the answer is very simple and obvious, so why can't I see it? When it comes to things like this, why must I have someone there to walk me through it like a little baby? And why is that someone never available when I need them? Why do they keep giving me the vague, obvious answers which I can't understand?

Why must I be so dumb?

Trying like the fourth or fifth fix I've tried all night, the one which I feel MAY work, if only I knew HOW to work it! <:(