11-16-01 @ 7:37 am EST

Just found out that a guy who stalked me online for over a year, and who I THOUGHT had finally forgotten about me months ago, is STILL obsessed with me. Thankfully there's been no resumed first-person contact...YET. But the fact that he's still talking about me, even months after our last "correspondence" (read: UNWANTED correspondence), scares me.

This was reposted in a private forum a few people who have interacted with him (and his cronies) belong to:

From: [e-mail omitted] (P)
Reply-to: [Group omitted]
To: [Group omitted]

She loved you. Under all that tar paper and eyeliner......she did. I'll bet the little bacon grubber is still around.

Her adoptive wolf pack never gave her 1/2 the attention that you did.

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--- In [Group omitted], "C" wrote:

> haha.. I use to leave messages on her Pharoah Site signed CamelHomo!

(First comment, IT'S PHARAOH, YOU MORON.)

...This makes very little sense to anybody who doesn't know the whole ugly story. I've considered posting it here for a while now. However, both times I did that in the past, he came after me, found me, and the harassment started anew.

There's a link to this site on my Yahoo! profile, and he could very easily access this journal from there. He could follow me here, and I don't doubt that he would. I was on another site where the webmaster had to delete him TWICE (first block him, then ban him) to get rid of him. He threatened me, and he threatened everyone who defended me. A very ugly incident.

The "CamelHomo" alluded to above refers to a time when I sat and deleted hundred of vulgar messages left by him in my guestbook, WHILE he was leaving them. He denied it at the time. If he still thinks I'm around, why did he just admit it? Stupid. As if it were anyone else anyway. Many times he slipped up and used a phrase only he would use while posting under that, and other, vulgar names. I even had to delete OTHER users' angry messages from my books after he had posted publicly, and very rudely, under a name similar to mine, including my URL in his messages.

Take note that the post above was PUBLIC; it was posted to a Yahoo! Group I'm not a member of. (A member of the Group then posted it in the private Club.) Also, this is a person who has shown REPEATEDLY that he has no respect whatsoever for me and many others; he will stoop to almost ANYTHING to make my life a living hell. I asked repeatedly that he not post to me if he could not respect me, and he refused. So I feel no bit of guilt in posting this, or anything else he has ever sent/posted to me. As far as I'm concerned, since I've told him to leave me alone, anything he sends my way is public property. My only hesitation comes about from what happened with him the last two times I did so. It's like he follows me around (which he did), or somebody else told him (which I wouldn't doubt).

Anyway...the last time we interacted with each other was months ago...and he's STILL hung up on me? His friend also? (Wherever did she get this "eyeliner" deal? I never wear makeup, never said anything about wearing makeup...they're getting even more insane by the day. Oh, the "bacon" and "tar paper" parts came about from a couple of facts I mentioned to this guy, C, before we were on bad terms...long story short, he very quickly turned upon me and used ALL of the things I had told him, however innocuous, against me. Once I said I covered my windows with black paper; that somehow morphed into "tarpaper." I also once mentioned I was eating bacon crackers. To this day he always refers to me porking out on "bacon bits." Can't get his facts straight, but then again, I don't hang upside-down from the ceiling fan like he claims I do, either.)

I'm going into too much detail, I'm sorry...it's just that, along with the Four Board incident, and what happened here recently, this stands out with the most horrible, painful things that have happened to me online. I was a newbie when this guy came after me, too. And like I said--he didn't let up for over a year. He STILL hasn't let up, from the looks of it. I'm glad I found a way to block him from my guestbooks, at least.

But I can't block him from here.

Maybe I'll share the story sometime in the future. I want to share it, but I'm afraid of him still.

Hope you're having "fun," C.

Sociopath.