12-05-01 @ 6:42 pm EST

What do people do to deserve random anonymous acts? I understand...well sort of...when Waterbaby granted me a Halloween Costumicon, as I had just been whining about it (albeit half-jokingly) in the GD forum...I mean really, everybody WAS wearing one but me...but what about the anonymous ones? It reminds me of the three-month upgrade. What did I do to deserve somebody spending $10 (I think that's how much it was?) on me?

I find it difficult to believe I've actually done anything around here worth impacting people so much...it really must be random. I don't mean to look it in the mouth and I'm not. I just get confused. There are tons of people a LOT more deserving than I am. People who reach out and touch others, people who communicate, who care more for others than for themselves, who are at least popular or well liked or even cheerful and welcoming. I'm not one of those people, I even admit it. Aside from venturing outside my portfolio demanding attention or sympathy, I practically live within this folder and peek outside only if it interests me. How do *I* deserve gifts?

I don't think I'll ever know...


(Unrelated note, my head has done that "thing" two or three times since I last reported. Just didn't feel like posting about it. I think that's it.)