08-31-02 @ 3:22 am EDT

This will eventually end up over there, so maybe it'll be spotted by the person who prompted it; but I takes my chances. This is my journal and I felt like getting it off my chest.

As I have stated before, I've copied and pasted all the entries of this journal over to my one at Open Diary. The site isn't very good techwise, but at least it has the semblance of a community; most other journal sites are very insular, and nobody even knows your journal is there unless you invite them to look. I prefer people to just pass by and see me, stay if they like, leave if they don't like.

Sometimes hard to believe that there really ARE people who, even if they don't like, STILL feel the need to hang around and carp about it. Really, folks. Is there some strange force making them click on those links, forcing them to stay and read and then complain as if we MADE them do so? Because I can't figure out anything else that would do it.

At OD yesterday I got two notes from the same user. I don't get very many notes at all, which leads me to believe, people in general just don't read the journal. That's fine; it's a backup. I know I get most of my reads here, on Stories.com--which is why I spend the bulk of my time HERE. Despite the tiny number of notes, though, I have a large number of entries. Those who know me know I write a lot. Those who have read the main page of my OD journal SHOULD know I write a lot. Granted, when you click on an entry from the site's main page, you have to click again to see the journal's main page. I guess people don't have the energy to do that.

Weird, because whenever I check out a noteleaver's journal, I make sure to find out about them by checking out their journal's main page and at least the latest entry, if not more. I did so in this case where a reader left me two lovely notes on my last entry ("grumble").

I deleted them, but they were along the lines of:

"Dude, you type too much. Get a life."

Followed by,

"Sorry, it's just the way I feel."

Well...thank you for that halfhearted apology(?) there, but it came just a bit too late to mean much. Here's the truth of the matter.

You didn't HAVE to click on the entry titled "grumble." It's a boring title, so I KNOW you were not somehow "drawn" to click on it. You clicked on it anyway.

Even though you clicked, you didn't HAVE to read it. The majority of the times I click on entries I don't like or find boring or too long, I just click away or close the browser. I decide not to take up my precious time leaving notes on something I don't care about.

And even though you DID read the entry, you didn't HAVE to leave a note. The message of your notes leads me to believe you didn't check out my journal's main page. Here's what it says, for your information:

Backup diary for my Stories.com journal. Thus "this site" refers to Stories.com, not Open Diary.

Username: tehuti_88; Tehuti; Tehuti, Lord Of The Eight

Hobbies: Writing fantasy, mythological, occult fiction, esp. with Egyptian or Ojibwa themes

Portfolio link (restricted--must be a member to read):

Tehuti, Lord Of The Eight's Portfolio
(scroll down for more links)

I would post my writing here, but there's never been much interest in it on this site for some reason. :(

E-Mail

Very shy; I appreciate notes but won't always respond. Rude notes will be deleted.

If you don't understand an entry of mine, please see previous entries; many are multipart. (Someone ELSE apparently didn't read my main page, as yesterday in response to one of my entries they replied, anonymously, with "What the...?"...also deleted...)

I am whiny. If you don't like that, please don't read. I will not shut up just for you.

Feedback on my writing, should you check it out, is greatly appreciated.

Red emphasis is exactly where it is placed on that journal, so it can't be missed. Likewise, all the lettering is in bold, at the very top of the page.

Granted...this is really the first time I remember being told to shut up because I TYPE too much, rather than for being too whiny. (Well...the first time in recent memory. Don't get me started on the lovely Four Board again.) But it's the same thing.

Here's the message since you missed it:

Skew is MY journal, not yours. I will not step into your journal, no matter how much you post--unless it is one of those asinine, bandwidth-sucking "I Have The Most Entries On OD!!!" pieces of crap--and tell you to "shut up." I will not tell you to "get a life." I will not tell you how to post in YOUR journal. Likewise, I expect the same courtesy from you and other users. If you can't grant that courtesy, just expect your notes to be DELETED. And if you ever find yourself straying to my journal again, since it bothers you so greatly, why not click somewhere else instead? I will do likewise, and leave YOU alone, if you leave me alone.

You see? Journals are personal things, and one should never tell another how to write in their own journal. You judged my entire person based on one (relatively SHORT!) entry. How do you know I DON'T have a life? Suddenly, writing a lot means one has no life? At least I'm doing something! And it's something I LOVE to do. If you'd read the main page of my journal, you'd have known that. Instead, you read one nonrepresentative entry, told me to shut up and get a life, and then for some bizarre reason tried to apologize?

Did you expect me to just say, "Oh, okay, no offense taken"? It's your right to feel I type too much, and you can even say as much in your journal; I don't care. But to post such on MY journal...well, I already told you what I would do.

No matter how rude or spiteful I found your notes, I will never stoop to your level. I will never tell you (no matter what I think) that you need to get a life because you dedicate a part of yourself to an online journal. I happen to have been writing in mine longer than you, BTW, hence the length of the thing--the entries span the space of an entire year. (You read only one, so you didn't know that.) Sometimes I'm bored and wish to share myself, so I post--GASP!!--more than ONE entry a day! So what. It's webspace you don't have to look at if you don't want to. Think of the thousands of other, some even longer, journals you could have clicked on; would you tell them ALL the same thing you told me? I never would have looked at your journal, nor posted this entry about you, if you had not done the same. We would have gone our separate ways; perhaps you would have said in your journal, "Sheesh, that girl types a lot," but I never would have been bothered to type this up, and you never would have wasted your time posting notes that I have just deleted anyway.

Is this entry too long for you yet? Tough; I'm not quite done yet! :P

Just let me say it one more time at the risk of being repetitious: YOU DON'T HAVE TO READ IT IF YOU DON'T WANT TO. And if you DO read it, then don't come crying to me when you don't agree with it or don't like it. It's like some people seek out reasons to whine. I don't go clicking on others' journals just to leave notes telling them to shut up, they type too much for my personal comfort!

BTW, how does somebody "type too much"? What is the definition of "too much"? Is it too much when we use up all the words...or when we reach a certain number of entries...or when we crash the server...or when the size of our journals gives somebody migraines? I really have no clue; nobody's ever told me. Oh well! Until somebody decides that for certain, I'm going to keep typing.

Trust me; Skew (that's the name of my journal, in case you missed it) has been through some MUCH rougher times than the ripple caused by your notes. It's still here, and for the time being, will remain. Honestly; when you told me to "shut up" and "get a life," did you think that would prompt me to STOP typing in my journal, maybe shut off the computer, and go do something else? (If so, what would you do if I told you to turn off your computer? Could I log in at OD and expect to see no further entries from you, ever again? Even if I did delete my OD Skew, how could you be certain I wasn't just typing it up somewhere else...? Will this keep you awake at night, knowing that despite your advice, I'm still typing too much, still without a life?)

Just like it says on the main page of that journal...if you'd bothered to read it. I guess you were so flustered and annoyed after reading "grumble" that you just couldn't stand another word from me...but as I said...I didn't make you read it, nor leave those notes.

No offense intended toward you, of course. "It's just the way I feel."

(This comment added for the benefit of anyone who may happen across the OD version of Skew and decide to leave a note: Rude notes will be deleted. I will not shut up just for you.)