10-01-02 @ 12:16 pm EDT

I'm sorry but that's what I'm feeling right now, and I have to say it in my journal. I'm sorry.

FUCK.

I just went to write the latest part of Manitou Island only to find that now there are item limits on UPGRADEDS also. Where was the warning for this? That's right...there was none. There's a 1000-item limit and I'm about 500 items over that, and I have no idea which ones would count if I deleted them, if they're going to be locked, when, if they'll be deleted, when, and if I can even write and post the next part of my story or any other story ever again.

I had set my mind and heart on supporting the site by paying for my next upgrade. And now without even telling me I find out I'll have to pay over $100 for PREMIUM if I want to stay a contributing member here! I understand the WHY. But WHY THE HELL couldn't there have been a warning?

And guess what? That 1000-item limit will DECREASE next year. Lovely!

Not only that, but NOWHERE does it say what the limit is on PREMIUM members, so is it even WORTH it?

I finally decide to pay to stay somewhere and now without warning they tell me I have to pay over twice as much than I had planned. I don't even know if I can afford a premium upgrade, but I'll have to if I want to stay here. Like I said I understand the why. But MAINLY I'm pissed off because when I ASKED about this back in April, NOBODY FUCKING ANSWERED ME.

Maybe I should have taken that silence as a hint? I made the wrong choice and took it as a hopeful sign. STUPID ME!

And so instead of writing Part 92 I'm sitting here crying and typing a stupid entry. I'm sorry for the language. But you can't blame me for feeling cheated that I wasn't at least warned. That when I ASKED if this would happen back in April, nobody saw fit to even say, "Possibly."

I don't even know if I'll be able to access my items when I come back on here. Wasn't that thoughtful?

I have no idea what I'm going to do. This was a REALLY nice surprise.