12-04-02 @ 12:09 pm EST

My journal doesn't seem to be very popular anymore. One view for the last entry. Just when I'm starting to feel like writing in here again, too. :( I guess it just got boring.

I again put off too long on the next part of the story, and so decided to start it this morning. I've already written 16kb.

ID: 557043 (Rated: PG-13)
Title: Part 100: The Dreamer Speaks
Description: Nathalit reveals the true story of those upon the Island...
By: Tehuti, Lord Of The Eight

This part is going to be a VERY important part, intregal to the entire serial. Many loose ends are tied up here, BUT the story still does not end. It's just an explanation of sorts. At least, I HOPE it ties up many loose ends. (Sometimes I guess I'm too vague when I explain things.) It should also set the stage for the climax, which should be arriving soon.

My last word count, pre-100, was 333,926. Keep realizing I haven't posted a WC in ages.

For a while I thought it might be the longest work on FFN. Until I found one that's like 500,000 words. Eh...I bet mine is better written, grammatically.

I also finished my Mackinac Island website and posted the URL, but people don't seem to be too interested in checking it out now that I've finally got it done. :( I don't get it...there seemed to be a little bit of interest BEFORE I finished it, but not now. I worked on that thing all night the other night and was so proud when I finally postd the URL...I guess I'm stupid to think people are interested. *sigh*

And I also posted for the first time in ages in a self-injury place, about how those SIers who don't cut appear to be ignored by the cutting population...and it looks like AGAIN I was right, as nobody appears to have noticed that post. For a while I've been wanting to find an SI community I can actually COMMUNICATE in, but when they all cut and they all ignore those who don't cut as if we don't count...it tends to make me feel disappointed and angry. What's the difference between them and non-SIers who don't understand them? No difference that I can see. I'm outcast even by those who often feel outcast themselves. Typical. I guess unless I whip out a razor, I don't count to them.

I'm a bit depressed about my journal having turned boring so I don't feel like typing much more in here anymore. Maybe some other time. One view...it looks as if the people who liked to check up on me don't care to check up on me anymore, I guess. I wasn't even depressed until I checked out my last entry, and then all this crap flooded out. Sorry. But it's not as if anyone will waste their time reading it, so who am I apologizing to...tar...