12-19-02 @ 7:33 pm EST

Exercising.

Is it protective? Is it a threat? It allows me a place for exit but still it dangles over my head. If I stick my neck out it could come down like some sort of horrendous frozen guillotine. Looks can be deceiving. The way out may literally be the way out.

I don't even know if I want to go out. As long as I keep my neck in I should be safe. I think the roof over me is stable enough. Though one can never be sure.

And it looks so cold out there. Yes, the sun is shining, but that's often when it's coldest, because you don't expect it to be. The moment you step outside the chill smacks you in the face and once again you're reminded how deceiving looks can be.

Even if I stepped out, where would I go? What would I do? Would I walk to that mountain in the distance? It's so far away and I've never had much endurance. I've always hated the cold. I hate the thought of leaving here, even though it's cold here, too.

But at least it's shelter from the wind.

I just had a thought. The sun is shining. What if this all begins to melt...?

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