01-27-03 @ 10:23 am EST

888 logins. My magical number plus 800. I will likely never see to reach 8888.

This is just a list of things...if you've read my journal thoroughly you may know what I'm talking about here, but if not, you can ask, though you probably won't...so I'll just post it anyway...just trying to sort some things out is all.

* The hole in the basement
* Water
* Drowning/face under the water/water in the eyes, nose, ears
* Sickly sweet smell/smell of "death"
* The children's playroom
* The chest of toys
* The fear
* The large room of toys
* Mildew and filth in the bottom
* Endless tunnels/hallways
* Crypt hallways with white light
* Lots of rooms
* Always looking and finding nothing
* Hidden passageways
* Glaring eyes
* The shadow of a spread hand on the wall
* "Womwom" music
* Colored lights
* Lamplight in the bedroom
* Nightmares
* Something I shouldn't hear
* The bush by the high school, under an overcast sky
* Dead grass on the ground
* Metallic green crayons
* Cabinets below the classroom ceiling
* The books I read
* Old lost childhood things
* Tigger beneath the ice
* Kitten on the floor, more and less and more
* The old crib
* Darkness falling so I can't see
* Warm wind
* Men
* Authority figures/police
* Things beneath the water
* God. Religion. Faith.
* Missing time

I know I'm forgetting something. What am I forgetting? :/