02-07-03 @ 9:46 am EST

I suddenly feel very depressed this morning. I don't know why. It's probably a combination of lots of little annoying/anxiety-producing things, which when taken together really add up, but I just can't seem to think of anything that should be important enough to make me feel this depressed. I hate it when I don't know why I feel the way I do.

Usually when you're anxious about something, if you sit and think about it long enough, you can pinpoint the cause. That may not get rid of the anxiety, but at least you know where it's coming from and if it's REALLY worth worrying over. It's not that way with depression. It just comes when it feels like it, and often at very stupid times. WHY should I feel so depressed? Certainly I'm annoyed with LJ, and with another site that should be working but isn't working the way it says it should, but why should those things depress me? They shouldn't. My writing has been going fine lately, and there's been very little negativity with my ratings and such (aside from that one the other day, but I'm rather over it). I have lots of ideas for what to work on next. I'm anxious that I owe e-mails; that's probably one cause. But not the only one; is it? I can't figure out why I just don't e-mail people and get it over with. I love to hear from people, but when it comes to writing back I just don't know.

Maybe "that time" is coming along? I'm not sure. I don't feel like it is, but then again I never keep track so I could be wrong. It always seems to pop up and surprise me. I really wish I knew why I'm feeling like this. I feel like the world is ignoring me when IT'S NOT. I KNOW that for a fact, but it doesn't get rid of the feeling. :(

February doesn't seem to be a very good month for Skew.

I had a lot of memorable dreams last night during my nap, but I've forgotten almost all of them. I do know that Cosmas and/or Pepper was in them...and something big, like outside...but who knows. I just didn't feel like keeping track today.

I hope I feel better later. I hate feeling like this.

Tar...