02-26-03 @ 4:02 am EST

Skew: Tehuti...you're typing in me again. It's been four days now since I last saw you and I was so worried. Where have you been? Why did you stop typing in me?

Tehuti: Well...I don't know. I did come in here a few times, you must've noticed that...

Skew: Yes, I did...you clicked to see if anybody had read the other entries...and I think maybe once or twice you clicked on "Add A New Entry"...but you never did. Why? Am I starting to bore you or something?

Tehuti: No! It's just...I don't know! I just haven't felt like writing that much in you lately...it's nothing personal...

Skew: But you spend so much time at other journal sites, and looking at OTHER people's journals...you used to look at me that way, once, long ago...but not for the past month...

Tehuti: Oh good Lord...

Skew: And whenever you had a problem you'd come and tell it to me...I know I haven't been the most communicative journal there is...after all I'm just some pages on a website, nothing more...but that never used to matter to you before...

Tehuti: I told you, it's nothing personal.

Skew: Then what is it? Tell me!!

Tehuti: I DON'T KNOW! I've just been busy with other things. You are NOT the only thing I have going on in the world!

Skew: Oh, that's right...that SERIAL of yours...you promised you would spend more time with me and with your other stories once that thing was done...but what did you do the week after that?...YOU STARTED ANOTHER ONE! That's why you don't post in me anymore...you care about that STORY more than you care about me! Take a look, you've even plugged it all over my pages! You love IT more! *sob*

Tehuti: You KNOW that's not true...

Skew: *sob*

Tehuti: Well, maybe just a little bit...

Skew: *SOB*

Tehuti: But I'm here now! Doesn't that mean anything?

Skew: YOU HAVEN'T POSTED IN ME SINCE THE TWENTY-FIRST! You used to post in me every day--several times a day! Now all you can do is say, "Not today, I have a headache." What did I do wrong? Why don't you like me anymore...am I too fat and ugly?

Tehuti: NO! I like your size! You're big but you're beautiful!

Skew: I know what it is...the fact that I've been losing my ratings lately...look, I've just lost two more! I had fifty-five of them and then forty-nine and now I have forty-seven and nobody else wants to give me any...you think I am boring and do not deserve new ratings, thus I do not deserve your love.

Tehuti: That's not it! Sure, I'm peeved by the ratings thing...and I do wish that more people would stop by and enjoy you as I do...but doesn't that prove that I still care about you, Skew? Why would I care so much what others think of you if I didn't care about you too? Why would I put so much effort into my entries if I didn't want you to look your best, at least in my eyes? Why would I have posted in you so many times, and come here yet again, even when I haven't felt like posting, and even when others are not much interested in reading or rating you? Why would I plug my story in here if I felt you were worthless? I even share Algonquin myths and stuff with you when I know nobody else will care about them, and you sit here and listen! What does all of that tell you?

Skew (hopefully): So...you really do still care about me? After all? Even after four days?

Tehuti: Of course! I'm holding an imaginary conversation with my webjournal, aren't I?

Skew: So you'll still post in me? Even if I'm getting old and fat and even if I'm losing all my ratings?

Tehuti: Skew, you could be completely ratingless and I would STILL be here typing in you.

Skew (blushing): Oh...you DO still care about me! I'm sorry I doubted you, Tehuti...it's just that, I don't know, I start to worry about myself sometimes...I know I'm not the prettiest or the best journal out there...

Tehuti: And that's all right. Because you're still MY journal. And just because I sometimes go looking at other journals, it doesn't mean you're not the best to me. You're the only personal webjournal I'll ever write in. Well, except for my dreams journal, and your myriad of backups on other sites. But you knew that already.

Skew (gushing): I'm so happy! You still love me! I would hug you if I were not made entirely of pixels! Would a cyberhug be okay instead?

Tehuti: Oh...all right.

Skew: Oh, and while we're getting our feelings out...I've been wanting to tell you this for a long time, but I wasn't sure how to say it. You really are a great journaler, and I so love when you come online and type long entries in me. The longer they are, the more I like them!

Tehuti: Thank you, Skew. That means a lot to me.

Skew: But you really have to do something about the Algonquin mythology entries. I hate Algonquin mythology. No offense.