04-28-03 @ 7:06 am EDT

Mmmmmmmm...I made some French vanilla black tea earlier and am drinking a cup...I'm glad I got it! It's been so long since I had black tea...maybe that's the reason for the headaches. I've never had French vanilla black tea before...*sighsighsigh* x_x

I'm hungry. :/

I've been wanting to go for a walk for ages but this cold just won't let up...I almost did, yesterday morning, which would have been the most convenient time...but it was gloomy and for some reason when I thought of walking down that road I felt very depressed. I don't know why; I like to walk. Why should it depress me? And during the weekdays is inconvenient because of my recording schedule.

I'm so pissed off at Toonami! For the past two weeks I've checked their future schedule and it said that DBZ was going to be completely pulled from the air for an indeterminate period of time. I checked the schedule as far in advance as I could and the show was no longer there! That didn't worry me as it's such a big show, I knew they'd have to bring it back sometime; but I was so looking forward to getting some extra sleep. NOW I see that they're not pulling it at all! What the hell was with those two weeks when they said in their schedule that it was going to be replaced by Zoids or something? Stupid asses! They made me get my hopes up for NOTHING!

I wish I could just get RID of this stupid compulsion for every recording to be exactly perfect; I know I'll never achieve total perfection in all of them. Probably all of the early episodes I have marked as perfect, according to my standards now, are full of flaws! Why can't I just be happy even if there's a little TEENY tiny line in the recording and just live with it? And get some much-needed sleep? This and my hair compulsions I just can't seem to overcome. :(

So it looks like I won't be able to walk during the weekdays either, thanks to STUPID Toonami and their fake schedule. I'm so disappointed now. I was looking forward to that extra bit of sleep. Jerks!

I'm still hungry...

Speaking of walking, when I walked down the road toward Mullett Lake once, last summer, I caught sight of a clearing in the woods...there were trees screening the clearing from view, but little peeks of light got through, and I saw this sunny patch of overgrown grass within, surrounded by dark pines. And this gave me a weird feeling of deja vu, seeing this clearing. I still think it seems familiar and important for some reason, but I don't know why. Not that area itself, but another area like it. Why? This sets my mind to thinking about a weird urban legend-type story I only vaguely remember from elementary school. A pile of rocks or something figured in some story about a snowmobiler killing his wife and burying her under it in the woods...or maybe a snowmobiler was the victim of a man who also killed his wife...or maybe the snowmobiler just found the grave...I don't even know by now. I just remember a pile of rocks/stone, a snowmobiler, and somebody who killed his wife and buried her in the woods. It was told like a scary story, like the guy was a madman on the loose. The pile of rocks/stone (I say stone because I don't think it was round rocks; more like broken sheets of rock or paving or something, piled up haphazardly) stood at the edge of the woods...but when I wrack my brain remembering the pines that lined the sides of the school playground, I can't remember anything that looked remotely like that.

What I DO remember is a pile of cracked pavement or something which is just down the road from us...at the edge of the woods. Surrounded by swampland. In plain view, but every time we pass it on the way to town, I remember that bizarre story. Why does this stick with me so much? I have no clue, but I've been thinking about it lately.

I actually didn't have anything to write here aside from talking about how much I like this tea...I've been working on Part 4 of the Chronicles and I think I've written most of the new material, though it's still much shorter than the previous parts, and I need to proofread and possibly add more text to the main writing itself. Bla bla, who cares. Even when I post that thing on an erotica review page it's not reviewed like the page PROMISED they'd do. I bet everybody else's plugs got reviewed. Why do people open review forums and plug pages if they cannot uphold their promises? I was once promised reviews of every item in my port and while the user DID get a good start, they are not onsite much anymore...and they didn't get to the items of mine that I really DID want reviewed. I even told them they could skip the rest of the stuff and just focus on the ones I was interested in, but they didn't...and as a result they didn't get reviewed. I understand there's most often just a lack of time, but sheesh, it happens so often, why don't these people learn from experience and just not open up the forums? Or else set very strict, very selective guidelines? They're going to be overwhelmed by the time I get to them anyway...there are no review/plug places for very long items, especially very long items with X ratings.

I can't think of anything else to say right now. Sorry this entry is so boring. :/