06-18-03 @ 3:57 am EDT

More from the lovely world of my high school diary! Looking back on this, I had no idea I had so much of a life back then as opposed to now...I just assumed it was much the same. Reading this makes me seem LIVELY compared to the way I am now...*sigh*

Saturday, January 8 1994: Slept in, aah! Got up to go shopping w/ Ma. Car nearly got stuck. Went to K-Mart first, got a CD & kitty treats for Pepper. Lost Ma, went looking, met up w/ Chris Bruce who asked what I was doing walking around her store. She said I didn't get out enough, I told her that's 'cause I have to give her brother a reason for thinking I'm a freak. Found noisemaking books--Aladdin, B. & Beast, etc.--funny! Jafar laughs, townspeople say "Hey! Hey! Hey!" Saw Carrie Paquin at counter--yech! [Note, Carrie was one of a pair of girls who harassed me at lunch in high school for no discernible reason. To this day I wonder why she and her friend--a girl named Vicky (sic?) Ryba--targeted me. How did I learn their names? I identified their "mugshots"--when the counselor showed me the student yearbook.] Waited in car for Ma at Fashion Bug; went to Glen's to eat. Went shopping--got some weird fruit--feijoa (sp?), mixed, & little orange things (comquats?). Bought comic magazine--neat art, called Wizard (sick! ha ha!). Didn't like orange fruit. Thought: How do pets see us (as)?

Sunday, January 9 1994: Not much to write today. Watched a couple of recorded episodes of Star Trek, took math notes, helped Ma store paints. Took a bath, finished Hamlet (book), went to room to do math. Proofs--ugh!! Listened to radio, recorded a few songs. Nothing much. Depressed--thinking of '88! You know, they still play some good music! Wow! Just missed stepping in cat barf going to Dad's room--lucky me! Earlier trapped Pepper in big box--ha ha! "Another Day in Paradise" is on--wow! Didn't shake vanilla milk up good enough--yuck! Didn't do much today--listened to some music, wrote letter for Mya. Ma has jury duty tomorrow. Wish she'd drive me to school! Hope I can get to sleep fast tonight. Thought: What really gives birth to hate?

Monday, January 10 1994: *--after lunch? not sure--went to bathroom, there was that sweet handicapped girl, greeting everyone Stubborn Ma wouldn't drive me to school! Bored that morning; asked Mr. McGowan what we were doing before class. Did worksheet in phys., Hamlet notes in B. L., Ms. Sturvist talking about Midsummer...: these people go to the woods to be alone, & all of Athens is in there! Took WW2 notes in Am. Hist., drew lots of figures in art--1 a 30-seconder! Michelle gone for 1st part of hour--I was kind of upset--but she showed up. At lunch Ben was gone, sick--Paul & Teddi asked Emily if she gave him cooties. Showed tape list to Michelle, she laughed & sang (Beat It, etc.), did almost a whole rap by Gerardo.* Spanish, not much--gave work to Mr. L, he said I've been working a lot. [Note--I completely slacked off in that class...no idea how I pulled it off...] Math in math. Ma's jury duty has to do w/ malpractice. Took a nap. Hope I can sleep. Thought: Are we any better off today than before?

Tuesday, January 11 1994: Slept thru part of phys.! Hope I don't miss anything. Other than that nothing. Watched Hamlet in B. L., got to poisoning part. Good movie. Why'd they cut out Fortinbras? Took notes from a Depression show in history, leading into WW2. It'd be scary to be listening to Hitler on radio! Drew more figures in art after going over proportion (one lady drawing looked like a horse torso). I just can't get this sighting thing! Ms. K modeled. At lunch Michelle looked at my Mystical Year book, said she didn't celebrate Halloween anymore, & asked why I read this stuff. [Note--yes, Michelle was one of...those Christians. She was friendly enough, but we did not like to discuss religion, obviously...] Just did work in Sp., somebody said the piņata was a bomb. Quiz & a little work in geo, yea! Took nap, Ma got pizza, new Star Trek, drew Ma & Dad's figures. Thought: Am I good or bad for what I believe?

Wednesday, January 12 1994: Had a sub in phys.--Tom Bonter's stepmom. Freaky lady. Did part of my math, drew weird neuron pictures for class. 2nd hr., did summaries (Mrs. Konicki subbed), watched Hamlet over again w/ guys in back room--Mrs. K. kept peeking in. Watching Tora! Tora! Tora! in hist.. Boring. Drew Paul Leonardi in art, Chris Maxwell drew him as Aladdin on magic carpet. At lunch Ben read a Damien thing upside-down, said he was, I groaned, he asked if he pronounced Damien wrong. Michelle says video for Michael Damian's Cover of Love is weird. Did work in Sp., I (of course) answered wrong question, then played computer game. Minty Verweis typed, I & others offered advice. Having trouble w/ geo. Proofs. I just don't get them! Someone's peeing on boys' bathroom stalls, graffiti in girls'--limited passes! Turned in library book. Thought: Why do I not "get" some things?

Thursday, January 13 1994: *--Michelle kicked in stall door on Rachel in bathroom! Finished drawings in phys., then read (I think!). Finished Hamlet in B. L.--Gertrude died, everyone was ready to cry. Looked at book/movie posters. Watched Tora! in Am. Hist., Japanese just ready to bomb. Drew model in art--she told us when a pose was done, but never when to start! Too hurried. Last drawing good though. Went to lunch while Michelle stayed behind, she came along & said Ms. K's envious of me. Me? Talked about French student doing report on x-rays. Weird.* Did work & quiz in Sp., asked about proofs in geo but still don't understand. AAGHH!! Went to psychologist, talked, tried to figure out way for me to not get overexcited--just visualize tiny MIB helicopters flying around my head. [Note--Jeez, I forgot all about that. The idea was to recite, "Helicopters, helicopters, flying 'round and 'round; breathe really deep and they'll all crash to the ground." Lotta good THAT did...] Dad tried this earlier when I got confused, said, "Whoa! Did you see that?" Thought: What's it take to truly understand?

Friday, January 14 1994: *--girl left room to throw up, then came right back. Sick! Took test in phys., don't think I did too bad. Took quiz in B. L.; Jeff's Hagstrom & Dombroski arguing about talking in Klingon (I have a headache. Where is a good eating lounge?). [Note: Punctuation there is...well, incorrect, I guess. I meant to imply there were two Jeffs--Jeff Hagstrom and Jeff Dombroski. Yes, this school was confusing.] Finished Tora! Not as boring as before. In art organized pictures, told Michelle & Des about the helicopters--got a good laugh. At lunch Russell's orange was frozen--Michelle kept thunking it! In bathroom she kicked in door on Rachel again, then hid--Rachel looked ready to kick mine in, thinking I was Michelle. Russell dropped his orange in the hall. Michelle wondered if she could get any strikes. Test in Sp. not too bad.* Just work in math. Boring pep rally--sat next to the gang, no one cheered. Ma & I (after school) visited Ms. K and Ms. Sturvist for yearbook. Went shopping, got some neat stuff (incl. Chinese translator). Thought: Is this really reality?

More weeks ahead in future entries...