07-02-03 @ 6:29 pm EDT

If anyone even noticed. :P

I believe I'll be all right...and not much more cynical than usual...I just needed to get that last entry out and to sleep on it a bit. Sometimes just posting about something makes me feel somewhat better. (I only say "somewhat" because it's my tendency to cross my fingers and knock on wood--I can't say things WILL go well else I'll jinx them. Sorry.)

The subject of that last entry was in fact bothering me the past couple of days, probably more so because I was refraining from posting about it out of fear of causing more crap. After logging on and finding very little crap to deal with, perhaps most of my worries are unfounded; and even if they are founded, who cares. I can always change my mind in the future and probably will, at least temporarily, but at the moment I don't really care about it. Maybe I just needed some sleep to put it in perspective. And posting about it took some of the pressure off me to keep it to myself. Even if hardly anyone noticed it, that's probably for the best anyway. Whenever I'm upset I usually end up making myself look like an idiot. :/

My other two books came today! Yea! My Woodland Indians one came last week. That one and the Egyptian mythology one are kinda small for their price :/ , but the ritual abuse one is nice and big and looks very intriguing. I believe I'll read it first, after finishing my Algonquin mythology one. I have this weird abnormal obsession with ritual abuse. There's even a checklist of symptoms in there that I already applied to one of my characters (guess who--no, NOT Damien!), though it's formulated for children and he didn't remember it back then. Oh well, bla bla bla whatever. o.o I DID have some tentative plans to read my CSI novel first, but...UGH! I've got a stack of books at the foot of my bed, plus others lying around, and never enough time to get to them all! And I still want more! >_<

It's very hot here today! I promised the Barnacle I'd take him outside today if I was in any mood. I'm not in a bad mood at the moment, so perhaps I'll take him out when I log off. He's currently slumped in the kitchen, looking like a checkered rug.

Oops, he disappeared. Sneaky little thing.

I can't think of anything else to say so I'll be going now. Tar...