07-15-03 @ 8:56 pm EDT

We had two guests last night. Kitty and I heard weird scuffling and grumbling noises on the front porch and I finally went to turn on the light. I thought for sure I'd find a bear with noises like that. When I peered out the window I saw two big gray butts facing me. Two little masked faces peered up, then as if they were attached at the ribs the raccoons ambled off together.

RACCOONS! I've never seen raccoons on our porch together. Not even one, much less two of them, together. :) I didn't even know they grumbled like that; on TV they always chirp and such. Dad told me that they do in fact grumble. (He deals with them a lot at work, in the Dumpsters and such.)

Well, I would post more, but a little personal matter is bothering me at the moment. Basically, it seems I cannot win no matter what I do in this situation: To apologize for whining, and come across as too apologetic when I might not deserve that? Or to not apologize, and to come across as more selfish than I really am? (I've always admitted I'm selfish, but my selfishness tends to come in small temporary bouts rather than stay around for prolonged periods of time...afterwards I usually regret being so selfish.) I guess I can be told to shut up or knock it off from either perspective and this double bind is really bothering me. I hate it when I thought I had a solution to a problem but it turns out I have no clue what to do. :/

Cable was turned back on so I have to go now. Not proofread. Tar...