11-05-03 @ 11:06 am EST

I'm starting to get seriously sick of sex. Ugh.

What I've been doing is typing up the remaining "Black Binder" stories I did not have saved to disk, and saving them in HTML format. Then I will upload them to a private Yahoo! Briefcase folder for storage, and hopefully post them here. There were about thirty or so left from the last time I did this. The deal with my erotica is that I typed most of it up long ago and printed it out but did not save it to disk for fear of it being found. Back then, I saw no point in saving it. I honestly thought I would be the only one to ever know it existed. Then people had to go and start enjoying it online, so...

I have it down to like twelve or thirteen left to type, but I can only do like two scenes a day (they average about 2-4 pages), and it gets sickening. Many of my older scenes, I just detest them now. Ugh. They are so lousy compared to the newer stuff. But I'm too busy and tired to rewrite them, plus they were only meant for enjoyment in the first place, not as real fiction. If they get worked into the existing storylines, then fine, they get rewritten. But for the most part that hasn't happened because those storylines aren't written yet, and probably never will be.

I nearly died gagging when I had to type up "Chance Devetko/Stan Brooks 2" the other day. GAGAGAGAG, that scene did NOT take place! Ever! I don't know what I was thinking. Others are just plain stupid as I wrote them back then. Most are no longer even exciting. Blagh.

Yes, I still like some of them, but most of those are the newer ones. Not the older ones. I realize that readers of erotica probably do not really care if they're reading literature or not, but I do. It'll never be literature but I wish it was at least PALATABLE. I'm still sometimes surprised when people tell me they actually LIKE some particular scene which I myself find detestable. I'm like, what the hell did I do RIGHT in that thing?

I'm puzzled about something though because I added all the scenes up and it comes out to 150-something. I could have SWORN there were 160-something. And then I got all these ideas that I had like THREE HUNDRED or so scenes! Where did I get that idea? Was I counting the Chronicles, too? Even those would add only about sixty to the total. I'm confused. I'm just about positive that I once compared numbers of the items in Skew and came out to 160-something. Yet there are only 150-something of them here in my binder...ugh...I am so confused. I hope I didn't somehow misplace ten or so stories along the way! Though I would have no idea how...

Anyway. I've decided I'm going to combine pairings into single items, so the folder is not so labyrinthine. Except as far as more than five scenes go. At the moment, Devetko and Brooks are the only characters to be featured in more than five scenes. (They really, REALLY like each other.) So they will have TWO items in the folder--scenes one through five, and scenes six through eight, whenever eight is finished. If they all fit into a 200kb or whatever item, that is. I think they will, since scenes are short. I just think it's too confusing to do that to readers. I have had people read the first part of a scene and tell me, "Write more!"...when a second scene with those same characters already exists, in that same folder. They just don't know it. If the scenes are included together, it should be easier.

They should total about 95 stories, at the moment. 95 different pairings, I mean. Those are

D Is For Damien pairings:

benteenpuck-cooperpsyche
bodinealec-shrineknight
broderickbroderick-clareanna
broderickluther-alicia
broderickluther-cooperpsyche
broderickluther-selena-stacie
broderickluther-selena
carlssonanders-newcombjulie
damatotroy-lejalynn
devetkochance-brooksstan
devetkochance-page
devetkochance-whittakerrussell
gardnerterry-unknown
gardnerterry-gardnermarie
grantderrick-danbrookelise
gregory-danbrookelise
gregory-selena
hunterjack-holly
ingrisanolorenzo-tulieerica
jerry-clarisse
kincaidalan-delborachristine
kincaidalan-jenna
kincaidmark-melissa
kristevamax-unknown
kristevamax-kristevanatalie
lucifer-lilith2
mulroyjames-brannonsandi
olearyaiden-olearyian-beth
reichertjustin-nyrkkanendoug
rhoadeswayne-james
rhoadeswayne-rhoadesnora
scottkennard-joanne
shrineknight-palladia
tiffendale-angela
tiffendale-campeaumelanie
tiffendale-campeaumelanie-angela
tiffendale-kozakkaren
tiffendale-lucie
tiffendale-vandenburgcolleen

Horus/Kemet pairings (sans Chronicles)

aker-buto
anubis-bastet
horus-hathor
menes-ankhnesmeryra
menes-bata
menes-idut
menes-ta-merit
montu-rattaui
ra-nebhethotep
ra-pahet
ra-rayet
ra-renenet
set-astarte
set-nephthys
sokar-selket
sokar-upuat-selket
tumu-bapef-shepset
upuat-ankhet
upuat-maftet

("upuat-ankhet" needs to be renamed, as the woman was given a different name in "The First Priestess Of Upuat"...which I can't remember now! Gah...)

Manitou Island pairings

blackelkhorn-silvereaglefeather
dupriesgerard-ocryana
dupriesjustin-littledove
dupriesjustin-shadowwater
geebee-unknown
lacroixfrancois-crookedcreek
manabozho-lilyflower
mitchimanitou-ocryana
ocryx-dupriesjustine
ocryx-leavesfalling
ocryx-manitou
ocryx-nicolette
ocryx-nita
ocryx-ocryana
ocryx-shadowwater
ocryx-silvereaglefeather
talnatha-redbird
xaaru-khiieta

Trench Rats/Tunnel Rats pairings

batman-nguyen
battleshipgrayrat-hilda
boris-didrika
camorat-juliananna
dobermannlouis-dobermanninga
dobermannlouis-wernersenta
ratdog-klempergodfrey
ratdog-mirela
resedarat-silverrat
resedarat-unknown-unknown
resedarat-vischer

Non-erotic (nonconsensual) pairings:

apophis-maftet
bodinealec-clareanna
brooksstan-william
rhoadeswayne-rhoadesnora
rhoadeswayne-robbie
silverrat-unknown
unknown-unknown-lacroixangelique
upuat-seii

Hope I'm not forgetting anyone...those are just the ones that have already been written. There are others. I haven't written much in the way of erotica lately, for various reasons. Namely that I'm getting SICK of it.

I meant to upload all these stories here long, long ago. I held off because I believed they were going to soon lower the item limit on Premiums. They haven't done that yet. But just watch. I'll probably start to upload them all, and THEN they will pull a surprise item limit on me. It's happened twice before...I'm always the first one to discover the new limits in action, why not a third time.

If I could just finish typing the damn things up first. And writing the intros. Each pairing will have an "explanation" and a "disclaimer." To help explain them, as they are disembodied from their storylines, and most people have not read the actual novels. These are kind of fun to write, but they're getting tiring, I'm only up to gregory-selena out of the whole four series combined, and they're keeping me from doing any REAL work. (At least I finished the latest chapter of RTMI the other day...got to bed late for doing it. I just HAD to fit in that ending, so the chapter ran long! -_- )

I'm getting tired of writing in here. Do I have anything else to say? Nothing of importance, I guess. I just wanted to vent about my stupidly gargantuan pile of erotica. Ugh. I am so fricking repressed.

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