12-07-03 @ 11:26 am EST

I think I am finally settling on the assumption that when people rate poorly and do not comment around here, they do so purely out of jealousy, because there can be no other logical reason for doing so. I've wracked my brain figuring out why it would be so tedious and time consuming to leave even the smallest review or comment when rating poorly, and there is nobody who can possibly be that lazy. I do understand people who rate WELL and do not comment, even if I still wish they would comment--many of them feel they simply have nothing to say, and the stars speak for them. When people rate poorly, however, it means they SHOULD have a lot to say--a reason why they did not like the piece. The very act of clicking in the average to low range verifies that the reader has something to say. Yet too often they don't comment, and this cannot be attributed to laziness, else they would not have bothered clicking the stars at all, and would have just wandered off with the mere thought, "Damn, that story was stupid."

Therefore, the reason behind this behavior must be jealousy, plain and simple.

I am by no means saying my writing is fantastic or even good. I'm just saying that in these cases of "dinging," my writing must be better than that of the people doing the rating. Why else would they not comment? They must feel inferior. I hate to make myself sound bigheaded, but it's the only explanation that makes any sense. Especially when my items are festooned with "Please comment if you rate!", and when I always make it clear I will not revenge rate or tear someone's head off if they give me an average/poor rating and some good advice. (Hell, that's what I'm here for, isn't it?)

Today, I checked the stats to see that one of my newer erotica scenes, "Dale Tiffen/Melanie Campeau/Angela," got a two star. No comment. I of course edited it, as I edited Part 1 of the Ameni Chronicles, to include this stat and my theory that, as no comment/advice/complaint was forthcoming, there must be nothing wrong with the piece then. It's rather funny this time because that particular scene is not one of my favorites--I suck at F/F scenes--and I would AGREE that it would need work...that is, if some advice or complaint had been sent! But none was, so I will just have to assume that the reader felt it was okay as is, they were just jealous that it was better than anything THEY could have put out.

*shrug* Like I said, it's the only thing that makes sense, right? A legitimate reader who felt the piece was lacking and would need work would have simply left a comment of some kind. Therefore, this was mere jealousy.

Well, the reader was not feeling talkative enough to give me a better reason, therefore I will just have to stick with this one for now. It does help to take the sting and annoyance out of poor ratings, knowing that somebody out there feels inferior when they read what I write. (Based on some actual poor reviews I've gotten in the past, they probably do not even have anything posted in their port. Remember the reader of "MI:1" who said it was "QUITE boring" and that their writing was "full of satisfaction and fun"...and they did not even have a shred of it posted here? Kind of negated their own argument with that one...)

Well anyway, all of the X-rated (I'm sorry, XGC rated--am I the only one who hates the "GC" rating, BTW?--it looks too much like "General Content"="G-rated," rather than "Graphic Content"=NC-17!) stuff of mine has finally been posted and reopened...so the Black Binder and the Rated X folder are done for now...although I do have a handful of unfinished scenes I have yet to...well, finish, and post. Whenever and ifever I do that. The Chronicles and RTMI always keep me so busy I have no time to write in here or in my paper journal. Believe me, all I would do is bitch anyway. :/ I haven't even had time to do that. I'm supposed to be offline now, you know. I just wanted to share my theory on poor ratings. What do you think of it, by the way? Make any sense to you?

Bla bla bla. Part 25 of the serial is now done and posted and Part 13 of the Chronicles rewrite is underway...I SO WISH I COULD JUST CONTINUE THE LATER CHAPTERS!!! Rewriting the older parts IS kinda fun, in a character-development sort of way (what can I say, I'm a drooler for character development), but knowing what happens far ahead in the story is so agonizing! Forget the early stuff, I want to get to Dja'mui and Pai'akhen (Sut'khut's son--THAT'S his name!--I knew it began with P but forgot it, when it was posted in the character journal this whole time! >_< ) and She'hekha and all that really good stuff I haven't even written yet! *whine* It gets really out there, later on--there is an unfinished scene with Tefkha that puts the violence in Part 10 to SHAME. But I can't even touch it yet because I'm still on PART 13. Damn my lack of plot in the early chapters!

I continue to be bothered that I feel the story is not reaching its potential best audience. I only just recently realized it would stand well as a furry story, even more so than my actual furry writing, because of the Apsiu characters. Therefore I believe it could find a good audience among furry enthusiasts; many of them enjoy yaoi pairings as well. But once again it's the underage thing that prohibits me from even looking into potential websites. I wish I knew who to ask about a good potential audience for the series, but I'm too ignorant and ashamed to; how does one admit they have that element in their writing without everyone looking at them like they're a sick freak? Even writing it in this journal makes me feel afraid of pissing everyone off. Thank God not many people read this thing. I hate always "justifying" myself by saying the only reason those characters are in there is because that was how it was back then--when you died at around thirty years old, hello, you're going to be having kids at 13, 14, 15!--but that's the plain truth. There aren't any such stories in my D4D and Trench Rats scenes, if you'll notice. Because they are set in relatively modern times, and by then such things are illegal.

I hate that there could be a furry audience just ready to drool over the Chronicles and I'm too ignorant and chicken to find out where they are! >_< I'm not sure if it's any help, but I've decided (spoiler) that the youngest (sexually active) character in the series, Tiths'hit, will lose her child. She is the one who was thirteen years old when she first showed up. Even in Apsiu society there are ages that are just too young, and I think fourteen is the usual cutoff, fifteen being the favorable age (see the scene with Ahen for some thoughts on this, it's one of the last parts--Ahen is a very progressive-thinking Kana, yet his thoughts hold for most of them). Even the other Kana are kind of leery of K'tasai's relations...maybe showing that there can be bad results will help the story somewhat. I don't want to glorify that they had young mates, just show that that's how it was. *shrug*

Well, before this goes all violet, I'd best be going...tar.