05-27-05 @ 9:10 am EDT

See my disclaimer on the last entry as for who this refers to.

I forgot to mention the most glaring fact of all, which rather PROVES my point that this Group misled anyone wishing to join by saying they were welcome, and that the webmistress unfairly judged me based on the paranoia of others:

In my final apology post in the Group (which came AFTER the Group e-mail mentioning people being afraid of sharing information), where I clearly, point-by-point outlined that I had no intentions of misusing any info given to me (I never planned to USE it at all!), I even VOLUNTEERED TO LEAVE THE GROUP WILLINGLY if my presence there had created a problem for everyone. See that?--I OFFERED to go, on my own, if asked to.

The webmistress assured me that no, no, it was fine, I was welcome to stay there and to post.

Next thing I know, she has banned me, and closed the Group, because apparently I *had* upset everyone.

She did not have to take such measures when I had even offered to leave peacefully.

She SAW my offer, and denied it, and then didn't have the decency to even tell me she had either lied when she'd said I was welcome there, or she had changed her mind.

And for all this I am always the bad guy and I bet everybody remaining in the Group thinks I'm a horrid person who upset everything, when I said right from the start what my purpose there was.

Now how is it that a bunch of people's paranoia at what a newbie MIGHT do is accepted over what a newbie repeatedly PROMISES she will not do--? How is that I felt forced, repeatedly, to give my reasons for being there, when nobody else had the guts to even say to my face that I had UPSET them? (I never even saw anyone post that they were afraid of sharing info--which meant they said it to HER and not to me!) How is it that it's so wrong to judge her or anybody in the Group but it was so right to judge me? Even those in positions of respect don't have the decency to tell the truth!

I was probably the most truthful out of any of the people involved in the whole thing.

And for that I am the bad guy.

Typical.

Do you know what the stupidest thing in all of this is? I was so afraid MYSELF, after all that, of asking anything, that I was likely not even GOING to ask any more questions, no matter what her assurances to the contrary. I was going to SHARE information that *I* had--stories about Mackinac Island, native legends of the area, things that I've read. My very first act after my first post there was to FILL THE LINKS SECTION with Ojibwa-language sites because THERE WERE NO LINKS! (Not that anybody bothered thanking me.) Once I had figured out how it worked, I was going to add PICTURES related to the subject, and fill the legends/sacred stories area with LEGENDS I knew--I had even typed one up offline to share! (Waste of time that was!) I had hoped that I might even SPARK more activity in the Group since it wasn't very active. Yes--that was my intent. To try to foster learning, whichever direction it went in. How very awful that I was going to try to learn, or at the least, share my own pitiful learning, without making any sort of profit or gain off of it.

I hope the Group remains on private just so no more idiots like me believe that stuff on the main page saying everyone respectful is welcome, and end up falling for all this hurtfulness like I did.

At least I know that this time the ONLY thing I did wrong...was I was honest about myself.

And it's very sad, when being honest is considered a bad thing.